New Apartment

So as I've been surrounded by boxes, packing, and generally picking up my life to move to a new city, I've been forced to go through my stuff and figure out what gets tossed out, left behind, sold, given away. It is a draining process, yet so cleansing. In the moving process there is always one aspect that doesn't get sorted until you unpack it, for me this time it is my life that I'm sorting. I've moved so much that going through my belongings was easy. I've got it honed down to things I am going to keep and what I'm going to leave behind. My life is a different story.

I feel like I've matured so much over the last couple of months. On my birthday I was thinking about how I still didn't feel like I was getting older...I felt like I was still in the same place I was when I was 18 and it had been 5 years. What happened to my 5-year plan? Yeah, that didn't happen. It doesn't make me sad or upset though, I just got more motivated to change it. Now that I'm in a new city, a new place, I have a fresh start and I can do this right.

I'm taking summer off from school to get settled in my new place, find a job and just try to do some stuff for me and work on bettering myself. Here is a list of goals I laid out for myself a few weeks ago, and I may add to it now =]

- Move to Beaverton (done)
- Get license (done)
- Get back on my skates and go to Oaks Park (doing this tomorrow)
- Spend time with my grandma, aunts, and cousin
- Do weight watchers and stick to it
- Start working out (start small, work up)
- Get unpacked before Memorial Day (working on this)
- Work on setting up a routine at home to make my life easier
- Incorporate something active in my morning routine
- Buy a planner that I'll use
- Apply for 3 jobs a day (so far so good)
- Apply for food stamps when Sara gets back from her trip


That was my list, and I could put more on it, but I decided not to. Something else I've been doing, though not on a list, is cleaning my life of unnecessary activities or people. I'm trying to be a better person, and an even better Christian. It took me forever to quit smoking, but I did it and it has been wonderful. I want that cleansing feeling with the rest of my life. I want to be free to be me. I don't need people tearing me down, manipulating me, using me, or being fake with me. I feel like I've been doing well in this endeavor.


It's not like I'm going through a list and saying "keep" or "toss" to my friends, but eventually my friends show their true colors. To me a friendship isn't determined by how much I see the person or talk to the person, but it is determined by how our relationship is when we do see each other and how our friendship is when we don't see each other. I don't need people nagging me about how little I call them or how little I see them. It is about to get a whole lot worse, and I'll see who sticks around.


ok, I have to go, but here is a look at my room before I unpack =]