Sooo, I'm halfway through the 4th week at my new job. I love it. Training has been a brain melting experience, but I am much more confident in my ability to do my job. I've met some pretty cool people at work and I think it will be a pleasant experience. I do tech support and it is a call center, some may find that a bad idea for me, but I think I'll love it =]. I don't know what else to say here, but yay. =]
School is on hold for various reasons. 1)I owe PSU money, will hopefully pay it back in time for Fall term., 2) possible bereavement, 3) in the process of reinventing myself.
On the reinventing...I keep feeling like changing the direction of my life. There are many things I like to do and I'm slowly realizing that maybe Social Work isn't my niche. I don't know what my niche is, but I've been keeping my mind open about it. Every time I get interested in something I look at it from a career perspective and see what I think about it. There are some real prospects. Photography, Writing, Teaching, Automotive, Cooking/catering, Regardless, I am thinking of changing and getting a business management degree of sorts because all of these bases could be covered by that. We will see how it goes, but I just feel like my life needs a refresh button. This move has been really good for more reasons than those that I stated before. I have a chance to think about my life without the constant push of other people. I love opinions and advice, but not people telling me what I need to do instead. I know all the steps for each of these paths, it's just a matter of which one I take.
Okay, the subject of guys has not been brought up in a while on here. I'm realizing a lot of things about this department as well. First, that people seem to think they know when I like someone, but are almost always mistaken. I feel like it is common nature to notice guys and think about a relationship without even meaning to, and I think it is ok to say "I wouldn't say no if he asked me, but I'm not pursuing anything there." There is currently one guy that I am interested in. I feel like I should be vague in case he reads this....lol...beats me. He is a little less than a year older than me, he is sweet, smart, funny, responsible, caring, and active in church and ministry. I haven't known him long, so I don't know what to do in this situation...I swore I'd never ask a guy out again, it never works out for me, but if he is interested in me, I'd hope he could ask me out, lol. I like the whole courtship thing, hanging out a lot in group, public, casual settings. That is how we have hung out so far, so I feel like I am able to get to know him with no pressure, and he has no idea(I think) so I dunno. Sheesh, I don't think I've said "I like this person" in a long time, much less this soon after knowing the person. I've just been praying about it and seeing what comes about.
Sara and I have found a church, I think we are both happy with this church. I know I am. I like the sermons and the ministries that they do. I talked to the jr. high pastor today to see about being a leader, but I have to have been going there for 6 months and he wants me to help out in children's ministry for a while first. I'm ok with that, I like Children's ministry. =].
On the topic of getting me out there...I really like how easy it seems to be for me to get out and live. I really have the best counselor in the whole world. With her help I have been able to change a lot of things in my life for the better. I used to hide out a lot, be paranoid about everything, and was anxious around people. Now I just seem to jump in more, I am acting a lot like I was acting before I started caring so much about what people thought about me. I think I'm starting to feel happy, and I'm not fighting the feeling anymore. It's not seeming so foreign, and I finally feel like I deserve it.
sorry about all the random jumps, I want to spill my brain out. hope you understood it all.
Oh, a couple more things. Sara and I have been hosting a chinese exchange student, Anice, and she is amazing. She is so adorable and I'm glad we did it. I've been a zombie or busy for most of it, and I hate that, but I still love it.
here are some pictures =]
this is from day 1.
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