I feel so overwhelmed lately. I don't fully know how to explain it...my brain can't form the words, I just all of a sudden felt this sense of being overwhelmed. there are so many things that I need to take care of, but a lot of them can't be taken care of yet...and I'm behind on my stuff at home and I feel like I'll never catch up. I'm behind on everything...my word count, my chores, my letter to Cate, fixing things like my car and my co-workers car, RCR stuff and everything......There just need to be more hours in the day until I'm all caught up. I still keep forgetting to go to the post office and figure out why all three of my address changes with them haven't gone through.
To top it off, I'm freaking out about finance for one reason or another...not because I don't have enough, I'm just tired of feeling the weight from living paycheck to paycheck and I want to catch myself up a bit....so I'm going to be working a boat load of Overtime over the next few months...I think I just need to stop freaking out....I need hugs....i'm going to need a lot of hugs.....my stress is bringing me to tears a lot....i don't show it..I'm too dang strong for my own good, but holding it in all day gets to me and I crack when I'm laying in bed ready to sleep...I just don't have someone to hold me as I cry myself to sleep.
I know i seem kind of melodramatic, but my mind over-reacts a lot........
I know girl. I've been feeling like that for 5 years. :( month to month, less and less food to catch up on bills and whenever you have a little extra or manage to save anything the car breaks down or the water heater goes out or the roof leaks... or your financial aid gets put on hold and no one tells you... or... or... or... and... and... and.. it's stressful... constant anxiety. Then people come along and tell you you are only stressed out because you don't work hard enough, you're lazy, you just want a hand out... ok I'm describing me now. You don't have to hold it together for me. I'll fall apart with you, we can fall apart together. Who needs strong people anyway, they don't know anything or they'd fall apart too.
ReplyDeleteyou're describing me too....except people assume I'm just not good at budgeting...they are wrong....I do get enough to pay bills but I need that extra to pay for the list of everything else that costs money outside of my normal budget. hopefeully working a ton of OT will help. we'll see what happens.
ReplyDeletemake a list of everything you need to do... that encludes sub listing too... get it all out on paper. then... take one of your days off and then just do each item. if doing one thing for the whole day get you behind on something else thats ok because the next day you have to your self, do that item. it helps me alot. i put shit aside to get things done. make a day that if you need to be out and about doing errands, figure out what you need to do (post office, store, car work, etc) then figure out where your stops are so you aren traveling across town 6 times. do it kinda in a loop.... i know your passion is NaNoWriMo but maybe you should put it aside for a different day. you have stuff you NEED to do vs WANT to do.(sorry i dont mean to come off rude about that, but priorities need to be straightend out.)
ReplyDeleteill be up in Tualitan on Thursday for my Team Leader class. i can come by and see you/help you if you would like me to.....