So to tie in the end of my last post, reading outside didn't happen. Rain came out to play and rain does not mix well with books. Either way, Jem and I played rock band while we waited for his friend Calvin to come over. I also watched him play Starcraft II. I like the concept of the game, don't know if I have the dexterity for it, but I will give it a shot. It does look like a lot of fun. I also braided Jem's hair, hahaha. I love playing with hair and he just has so stinking much of it. Now Mariona needs to braid my hair =] It was really funny because last night I had a dream where the three of us were all out in the sun, Jem was reading, I was braiding his hair and Mariona was braiding mine. lol. There was another aspect of the dream, but for certain people's sake, I think I'll leave that detail out :D I don't fully understand the dream, I do think dreams have some sort of meaning, but I don't know that any person will ever actually know for sure what that meaning is about their own dreams. For now I'll stick with my hunches and find out later if they are right or wrong.
I've played so many board games this weekend, it is amazing. I even won some, that was even more amazing. Let's see, we played Princes of Florence twice, Liars dice three times, Agricola Farmer's of the Moor expansion 1.5 times, Glory to Rome, Resistance, Ti Chu, Through the Ages, Power Boats, and Biblios twice. It was a ton of fun. I won Princes of Florence once, Liar's Dice twice, and Biblios once. My ranks is moving up, hahaha. I failed so badly at TiChu and Power Boats, and Through the Ages, but of all of those, Through the Ages is the one where I want a rematch and think I could have a closer battle if BOTH of us(Jem and I) play by ALL the rules. Jem cheats =]
A lot of other things have come up this weekend in discussions. Like marriage...this might ruffle some feathers, I don't know why, but it might. I don't want to go through the whole wedding thing. For a while I had always wanted to be married, but then I learned about the laws that if you are with someone for a set period of time you are legally considered married. Then I thought, well why do I have to go through all that hassle then? Why do I have to have some minister tell me I am committed to my husband if I decide on my own that I am committed to him? why do I have to go through a ceremony and pay all this money just to tell the world that I love this one person? I dunno, it's been my stance on it for a while. Most of me feels like a "marriage" just makes it so you feel like you "have to" be with that person, or it puts that air on the relationship, then if it doesn't work out you have to pay money to sever it. And I know that that is supposed to deter people from getting married if they don't think it will work, but really who goes into a marriage thinking "I hope this works out." Everyone I know is sure it will work out and then it doesn't. Ok this whole thing is getting jumbled in my ramble and I'll just stop. Feel free to ask for clarifications.
The end of my weekend held some stress and emotion stuff that I didn't really have an outlet for at the time it was going on, or there wasn't a good time to bring it up to rant about it in my mind. So today I started with just random stuff going through my head and I'm good at compartmentalizing my feelings so I don't "feel" them when I don't want to. I don't like being an emotional wreck, even though it really isn't an emotional wreck if it is just a bout of emotion caused by a turn of events. Anyway, I was doing just fine at the compartmentalizing of the emotion until I was about to go home. I got a really awesome hug. It was a hug a lot like one I explained in a post before, where I just felt really secure. I felt such a strong emotion that I almost started crying. It confused me so much. It was a hug that made my compartment walls come down for a brief moment and I wasn't protecting myself. I didn't want to leave but then I did because I probably would have cried and then I would have been embarrassed and then my anxiety would have taken over and just envision a train-wreck, lol. It was probably the best hug I've had in two years. (Yeah, I know that the person who gave the hug will read this, but I don't see any reason to filter my blog posts for that reason, so I'm not.) Various hypothesis run through my head about it all, but those I probably will filter out. :D
Good night all =]
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