Thursday, July 21, 2011

Ranty McRant Rant

I am tired of needy people. I really am. I am to the point that if people I know don't start realizing that the world doesn't revolve around them, then they'll lose a friend in me. This isn't just about one person, so don't go worrying that I'm talking vaguely about you if you are reading this. Just a string of events with various people has gotten me to the point where I want to break things.

I don't keep these people in my life because I'm a glutton for punishment, but I like them. I'll always have my complaints about people, even those closest to me. That just comes with life. I just don't like it when I'm painted as the bad person because I didn't give 110% when the person complaining didn't even give 10%. I go to Salem and get snapped at because I didn't see certain people. It is the same 6 people every time that complain about me not seeing them but never put the effort to make it easier for me by meeting me in the middle somehow. Just because I have a car doesn't mean gas materializes out of thin air.

Next, over generalizations....stop using them. Don't tell me I'm doing it here, I'm just not wanting to pick people out, I'm not saying "nobody does this or everyone does this" I'm saying, certain people are making my stress levels go higher. what I mean by generalizations is....don't tell me everyone bails on you when I'm the one that stays or that everyone talks about you behind your back when I don't. you can say I think some people might be doing this or some people bail on me more than others, but to say everyone does something is discrediting the people that do try and it is hard for those people (usually me included) not to take it personally.

I'm sorry if none of this makes sense, but I just needed to rant and get it out so I can go to sleep and not be angry. I am warning people ahead of time, stop painting me as the bad person when you aren't willing to put forward the same effort you expect me to put forward.

Good bye and good night

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Grr---Arg

So I know I'm lame and haven't posted in a while. Here is a huge update on many aspects.


I got a JOB!!!! I work doing phone tech support for XBox. I think I will love my job, even if it brings back all my jokes when I mocked cubicle hells. =] I start on Monday (technically tomorrow) and I can't wait. I work 40 hours a week and for the first 4-6 weeks I'll work m-f 6am-2:30pm which is a schedule I'd be glad to keep for a looooong time =]

Next on the agenda, dating life, or such that is nonexistent. I have two guys that have piqued my interests, though only one that might possibly be optimistic. The other one the guy is definitely interested but all he wants is for me to send dirty texts or pictures and I'm cutting those ties because that isn't how I roll. The guy that could possibly be optimistic is a guy that I met soon after moving up here. I find him attractive, we have a lot of the same interests and similar types of humor. I have to be vague in case he reads this, I'm not gutsy enough to voice my interest in him quite yet, though I have decided that I will pursue a get-to-know-you type relationship stage and see where that goes.

In other news:

1. the Caylee case...I'll voice my word. I trust our judicial system. I find it sad a child died, I find the circumstances odd, but I don't agree in sentencing when there is reasonable doubt. I don't have enough interest to look into the Caylee's law thing unless it shows up for ballots in Oregon. I'm not a horrible person, I just have my views.

2. Google+ I think I will like this, I like a lot of aspects of it and I'm a big fan of the Google stuff tying in together. I am interested to see what happens when it rolls out officially.

3. Harry Potter on Thursday!!!! =] I grew up with this series. I was 10 when the first book came out and I have been reading them since way before they became popular. They became more popular when the first movie came out (when the third book came out) I aged with the characters and though I am now 23, I am still just as much of a fan, and I think I always will be. Thank you JK Rowling for introducing me to the books that changed my views of books forever.

4. Free Slurpee day tomorrow. that just deserves mention =]

Back to my life and stuffs...It has been almost a month and a half since I moved up here and I still think it was a wonderful idea. All the aspects of my life that I hoped would change for the better have changed for the better. There are still bumps and that is to be expected, but these bumps I can handle, I see my life going in a progressively upward spiral. Also, this is so far the best roommate situation I've ever had. Her quirks are cute, I think she finds mine cute sometimes hahaha, and we haven't fought yet. We know how to tell when the other person seems to be getting a bit frustrated and diffuse it with logic or humor. Now, if only I could get the cat to jump on MY lap too, we'd be in business. =]

Ok, rant is next.

To all my Salem friends if you read this...the ball is in your court. I know I am the one that moved away, but that does not mean that I have to pay all the money to come see you all. I've come down, I've gone out of my way to see as many people as I could. I've been flaked on, cancelled on, lied to to get out of seeing me, and whatnot. I'm done. I'll still try to see the people that haven't done those things to me, but I have less reason to drive down for fun. It's all of your turn. I've heard every excuse in the book as to why people couldn't come see me, even a person that lived a half a mile away from me. Don't lie to me, just tell me you don't want to come. Lying is worse and just stupid. I had two house-warming parties, not because I love having them, but because when I moved my friends requested me having them so they could see my place. I've done everything I can, so I repeat...the ball is in your court. What are you going to do with it?

Ok I think that is good for now. gnight all.